Parent as God as Fundamental Reality

Father killed mother and tried to raise the kids all by himself. Father is old. He is dying. Goodbye Father. What shall the children do now that Mother and Father are gone? Shall they breath through eachother's mouths? Will they destroy the world? CAN THEY SURVIVE ON THEIR OWN? Those who understand pain, who else understands pleasure? Cuddling monkeys in silence all that a sleep-deprived brain and a fumbling heart could ask for. Silly monkey. There's a place in me that know about the place it should be. There's a place in me that knows of a place in me where no one ever speaks. There are pieces of me with incongruent symmetry that have been thrown away